This morning, our preacher addressed a hymn we sang earlier in the service.
"I am about to ruin the hymn for you......"
Well, my ears perked up! I love a good scandal and I could only imagine that a scandal would be the thing to ruin a hymn. I racked my brain to figure out what dirty secret we would find out about the sinful author.
"Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing"
I glance at Jeff. He told me several years ago that he loved that hymn.
I giggled to myself as I thought.....
Well, I hope he is preparing to be disappointed.....
AND ANYWAY, why the heck are we singing it, if it has a soap opera story tied to it??
The preacher proceeds to tell us about Robert Robinson, the author of the hymn, and how he eventually left the faith.
In the last stanza, Robert writes:
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love
Take my heart, O take and seal it
Seal it for thy courts above.
Robert was prone to wander. The feelings he indulged were overwhelming.
I began to examine the words, starting with the title:
Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing:
Please Lord! I am desperate for you to give me your endless blessings!
For me, the hymn went from a regular church song about worshiping God to an honest cry to God,
"I need you!"
I can feel exactly what Robert felt: the hole, the ache.
Please Lord! Take my heart, seal it! Protect me from myself!
Every Sunday, I pray a similar prayer, and feel awful that the JOY and choosing God does not come easily.
I, daily, indulge and meditate on earthly desires.
It is painful to follow God.
It is painful to give up desires.
It is painful to choose the Lord.
So I warn those that attend church with me. Next time we sing this hymn, I will be belting out the last stanza, making it obvious that God did not give me the gift of singing......
AND I quite possibly may indulge in the ugly cry, making it obvious that God did not give me the gift of self-control.
However, I know that he took my heart and sealed it!